Random Thoughts and Whatnot

October 26, 2006

Mr. Ibis and my therapist

It's like stumbling through the forest, with a poor map and a reserved guide. My guide has been my therapist and the forest was pretty thick the past 9 months of the year. What started out as casual meetings to discuss family issues turned into issues of friendships, anxiety, and power. Sometimes you don't know what the end of the path is going to look like and I think I'm still trying to figure that out. Right now, I'm stopping therapy for a while. The benefits are great, but the financial cost is high. Of course, financial cost is relative. There is no cost that equal a better quality of life, mentally and emotionally.

But the funny thing about my last session, and a few of the last sessions, is how she has been trying to coach me to think and try often to be self-reflexive. If I can challenge myself at every poor decision, maybe those decisions will become fewer. If I can recognize in myself symptoms of stress or anxiety or resentment or pain, then I will be in a position to do something about it. This kind of self-reflexivity seems so basic but it took us years to come to this point in our travels. I'm nowhere near the end of the road, so I hope I can move forward, on my own for now, with some increased sense of awareness.

Even as I write "on my own" I know that I need to work on making friends. That would get me a benefit of needing my therapist as much. Basic yet challenging for me.

The author of American Gods opens chapter 19 this way:

One describes a tale best by telling
the tale. You see? The way one
describes a story, to oneself or to
the world, is by telling the story.
It is a balancing act and it is a
dream. The more accurate the map,
the more it resembles the territory.
The most accurate map possible would
be the territory, and thus would be
perfectly accurate and perfectly
useless.

The tale is the map that is the territory.

~Mr. Ibis

What does this have to do with Dave in therapy? I dunno. But it speaks to me.

Written at 9:50 PM by David.

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October 23, 2006

In a less lucid moment

In a less lucid moment, I might post about a site which offers 50 simple proofs God is imaginary. I wouldn't be so bold to comment on that site right now. Except to say my favorite of the 50 is the proof by way of Leprechauns (or might as well be the Flying Spaghetti Monster (which, because of its absurdity, doesn't deserve my comment)). So I won't comment on this site or the other.

Written at 7:34 PM by David.

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October 20, 2006

Mary Lou Lord "The Wind Blew All Around Me"

The Wind Blew All Around Me

look at me laughing
look at me joking
i'm having such fun
look at me screaming
look at me choking
i've been overcome

look at me hanging from your windowsill
look at me stand on the top of your hill
my voice rang out like a dentist drill
the wind blew all around me

look at me dancing
look at me dying
my muscles have shut me
look at me sleeping
look at me flying
way on my body

look at my plane, should we go for a spin?
look at the kids asking where we've been
you took the controls and I stood on the wing
the wind blew all around me

all around, all around
all around, all around

look at me aging
look at me shrinking
will I feel the same
look at me smoking
look at me drinking
tell me what's my name

look at me lying on the golden sand
look at this note I got here in my hand
it says I lost my gig to a tribute band

the wind blew all around me
all around, all around
all around, all around
all around, all around

the wind blew all around me
the wind blew all around me

~Mary Lou Lord

Written at 10:21 AM by David.

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October 18, 2006

Trouble Sleeping?

If you are like me, you have trouble sleeping about 6 days a week. For this reason, I am particularly attracted to Sound Sleeping, a web page where you can mix your own white noise. I played around with the sounds for a short while and next thing I knew it was time for breakfast!

Written at 6:51 PM by David.

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Two neat photos

http://antwrp.gsfc.nasa.gov/apod/astropix.html

and

http://antwrp.gsfc.nasa.gov/apod/ap061016.html

Could APOD be the best blog ever?

Now for one of my son's astonomical treats:

Written at 6:35 PM by David.

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October 12, 2006

Noodles and noodles

We had noodles for dinner tonight. Ramen noodles, made with hundreds of side dishes from which we could each choose to customize our noodles. I choose tofu, green beans, soy beans, carrots, and soy sauce.

Half way through with my bowl, I looked over at my son, who was eating like a starved child, gobs of noodles in his mouth and half a gob falling out. I smiled. Then I looked at my daughter, with one noodle dangling out of her mouth. And I smiled.

Written at 6:53 PM by David.

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October 10, 2006

Doors to nowhere--kinda like Home Depot

Click for a door(s) to nowhere. If you don't get some enjoyment, you haven't caught on yet.

Written at 9:18 PM by David.

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Cellular Visions: The Inner Life of a Cell

A little video, found via this blog, via this source.

Hey, maybe this YouTube phenomenon is going to catch on after all! (read with sarcasm).

Oh, and a neat site with more cellular animation. Check out the interactive section--I had a fun time with one of their games.

Written at 8:07 AM by David.

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October 09, 2006

My brother

My brother likes the Simpson's. I guess I like it too, but can hardly find the time to watch it. Seems like my nights are taken up with the kids or with cleaning & laundry. Once in a while I get to treat myself to an hour of reading. Working on a book right now that is quite entertaining, Neil Gaiman's American Gods. Good book--I suppose when I finish I can read the review and plot summary at Wikipedia.

So if you would like to watch some of the Simpson's while doing laundry, check out this site.

Written at 8:06 PM by David.

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October 08, 2006

Simpson's Voices

More You Tube Favorites: The Simpson's Voices.

Written at 9:46 AM by David.

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October 07, 2006

The World's Funniest Joke

Click to experience The Funniest Joke in the World.

Click here to see a listing of other legal movies & films.

I can't play soccer due to a gimpy achilles tendon. Never had this injury before and I'm treating it gently. I read that a major problem with this injury is the athlete returning to the sport too quickly.

Written at 11:38 PM by David.

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October 06, 2006

Page France and a Test

photo courtesy of Jason Hightower
lyrics by Page France

Written at 1:34 PM by David.

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October 01, 2006

Riding Dirty or White and Nerdy?

Chamillionaire - Riding Dirty

Weird Al - White and Nerdy

and in case those links don't work, you can try here or here.

Written at 10:38 AM by David.

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